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  • susan kendal

Hindsight. Thru its lens I recognize my blessings.

I I lost my husband. My best friend โ€ฆ

and thru the gift of hindsight, I realize I lost so much more.


For me, a HUGE loss is that of a constant companion.

S๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜† ๐—น๐—ผ๐˜€๐˜€.

THE OTHER LOSSES NO ONE WARNS YOU ABOUT


Secondary losses are the ripples created after losing a loved one. They often begin to appear after the initial shock of death has lessened. Each one, and there are many, forces us to rethink how we see ourselves. They can appear in many forms including financial setbacks, changes in friendships or your place in the family.


Since the age of 14, when I first met my future husband, I took it for granted that he would always be by my side.

Together we set out to create a lifetime of memories.

It was all soooooo simple. I had a partner available for any adventure I could dream up for us โ€“ large or small.

AND NOW?

Like most widows, I was overwhelmed with support after the initial tragedy. However, in time people naturally go back to their own lives and the invitations decrease.

So whatโ€™s a girl to do? I know I am one of the lucky ones because I have a large network of friends and family. If I would like a companion to join me, I am now required to search for a friend who is interested AND available.

Sounds simple? No, it can really shake my confidence as I often hear various forms of โ€œnoโ€ from my mostly married friends. Thatโ€™s secondary grief!! It changes our perception of who we are and how we move thru our new life.

In hindsight, is there anything I could have done differently?

โ€œI would find myself getting deeply distressed if I lived in hindsight all the time.โ€ โ€“ Abraham Lincoln

For me, hindsight is an opportunity to learn and grow. Itโ€™s hard to imagine that sudden death will happen to your loved one and forever alter your life. Itโ€™s even harder to imagine that there will be additional grief and sorrow as time goes on. I have no control over death and grief but I can control my reaction. And I refuse to live with regrets or focus on what โ€˜shouldโ€™ be. So, onwards I go into the future collecting any lessons I can along the road.

HAVE I LEARNED LESSONS THRU HINDSIGHT?

Most definitely!

Life is unpredictable. I canโ€™t change the past but I can try to appreciate the now. I may have taken the gift of companionship for granted but no longer. I am truly excited when offers come my way and I am very grateful to those who say โ€œyesโ€ to my invitations. Now, I try not to take ANYTHING for granted.

I shall forever miss my husband and cherish our shared memories. I shall also move into the future forging new paths & new memories.

Forever evolving.

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