I had an opportunity recently to learn a valuable lesson I hope to remind myself again and again throughout the year.
SETTING THE SCENE
This past week I was locked out of my car in the late afternoon on a cold and snowy day in the downtown core. It was beginning to get dark and the streets were very quiet on this holiday weekend.
Nervous concern began rising inside me.
I was forced to reach out for help. So I began to go thru my mental rolodex.
Who do I call? Will anyone realize I’m not home? Who should I burden? Why am I feeling so anxious and alone?
REALITY IS A BI#!H
After my husband died I came to the difficult realization that I am solely responsible for me now.
In the past, I would not have hesitated to call my husband for comfort and help. He was an extension of me. We were a team. He always had my back and we were responsible for one another. It’s what we did.
But now…
Who do I call?
I was filled with negative self talk. My inner voices were on overdrive!
I don’t want to be anyone’s responsibility
I don’t want to be anyone’s burden
THE AWAKENING
Armed with my coaching tools, I brushed away the negativity and called my daughter. Her immediate offer to help warmed my heart.
I now wonder why I hesitated to reach out for help.
Is it pride?
Self doubt?
A feeling of being needy?
Fear of being rejected?
Acknowledging how alone I truly feel?
Regardless. I am proud of myself for pushing out of my comfort zone.
THE GOOD NEWS
I am so grateful for my daughter’s response when I texted her later that evening to say thank you.
I was reminded that I am loved. Sometimes we need to be reminded.
Wishing everyone a happy and healthy year ahead filled with self-love and compassion. Remember, you were loved by your partner because you ARE worth it.
Forever evolving